Tag Archive | Tired

I’m Tired

Its been exactly a year since I ended my first run of the 100 Happy Days Challenge. Here’s what I wrote at the end of the challenge.


Since that time, well let’s just say it’s been eventful and call it a day. I don’t have the time or space here to go through all that’s happened in the year since then. So I’ll sum it up with a simple two word phrase: I’m tired.

I’ve been through a long summer job and fantastic show last summer, two tumultuous semesters, a hard breakup, a whirlwind adventure in the broadcasting world at BU, and an interesting (if hard) spiritual development. And all I feel at the end of it is tired; absolutely drained.

I should say this before anything else, I’m not in a bad position. I have my health, I have many good things in my life, and I have a spectacular summer ahead of me. I’m not doing badly, I’m just worn down. It’s as if I’ve gained 5 years in just 1. As if I became a 40 year old soul in a 20 year old’s body. And I’m not sure how good that is.

I still have enough energy to work and function as per usual, and I’m still in many respects the same guy. I’m still up for an adventure into a city I’ve not been to. I still love doing sports stuff. In fact I might love it more now than at any other point in my life. I still love God and the Catholic Church. I still love having political discussions and trying to reach a good and truthful conclusion on hard issues. I still have so much fun with many of the same things that I’ve enjoyed for years now. I just don’t have the energy level I once did. At least it feels that way.

When I was a kid, I was the energizer bunny. I could go for hours and hours and hours, playing baseball, running through my yard, biking, talking, doing whatever. I always had a reserve tank of energy. I could always power through a day, regardless of how long, and still have energy to spare at the end of it. I could still do that going back to the early days of college. I can still kinda pull it off now. But I can’t do it on demand. I’m also not as full of energy on a normal basis as I was even last year. My most frequent response to people asking me “How are you?” has been “I’m tired” or some variation of that. It’s a little alarming, but I’ve accepted it as where I am right now.

I hope that a summer on the cape will reenergize me and get me nice and recharged. This place has done that so many times before. I know that baseball can do that for me too. Again, it’s done it so many times for me before. But I’ll need a huge reset from this summer. It’ll be a long process, but I think I’m up for it and It’ll be a fruitful summer. In many respects it already has been. TRL Hockey took me on as a staff writer and the Brewster Whitecaps have given me some excellent work on the young season. It’s been a pleasure being around them and they’ve started the recharge. I just need the rest of the summer for it to run its course. For now at least, I’m still tired!!

Physical Wellness

I love sports and I follow athletes with regularity. I have dreams of being a sports broadcaster, telling tales of great athletes performing amazing feats and doing great things in the arena of competition. I love watching skilled athletes compete. That does not mean that I’m actually in shape though… Oops… I have spurts where I’m regularly at the gym and exercising, which is good. The problem is, it’s not a regular routine. If I am to get into better shape, then I’ll need to make it a real routine. I played a game of softball with guys from the BU Catholic Center against guys from the Christian Navagators. 

  While it was a fun game, we Catholics were defeated by only 2 runs. How’d I do in the game personally? 3-5 with 3 singles, 2 RBI, 2 runs scored. That’s good. The 3 clear errors I had weren’t… 

Oh well. After the game, I went to get some food and put in some study work on my final exams that are rapidly approaching. After that, I had a little more energy and needed to get it out of my system. I went to Fitrec to get a workout in. Most of my workouts have been on the basketball court shooting hoops and doing short sprints. It’s been a great refuge for me when I need to get a breather from college work, and has produced some hilarious stories. But today, half of the upstairs courts were occupied by what looked to be a testing session for a sword based martial arts form. 2 of the 3 downstairs courts were occupied by various things as well. The open courts were thereby crowded by people looking to ball. I had no chance to either get a hoop to shoot by myself or to get into a pick up game. Oh well. So I had to ditch playing hoops and get a traditional workout in. I decided to basically turn it into a leg and core heavy workout. Yes, it was leg day. I didn’t kill my legs they way I often do on those sorts of workouts, but I am feeling the effects of it now.  


Yeah, it was a good time. I actually worked out today!

But physical wellness goes beyond merely exercising. I’ve not done a great job of getting myself off to bed early or eating well… I frequently get off to bed by 1 AM, and not eating healthy things or just eating the same things: salads, fruit, pizza, burgers, cookies, or similar foods. These foods aren’t that bad, but I’m still not resting my stomach that well. I do get better foods and I have gotten some other good and healthy things. Still, I really should be taking better care of myself better in these ways. I’m reminded of this seeing the posts of a friend’s blog. My friend Alison does an excellent job on her blog, Daily Moves and Grooves. It reminds me that basic personal care, sleep included, is fun and needed, and that you can have a healthy and balanced diet here at BU. I’ll make sure to be kinder to myself now. Once I have this post up and on my page I’m going right off to sleep. Yay sleep!  


I’m happy I actually took care of myself today. I worked out, ate pretty well, enjoyed good company, and had a wonderful day of exercise and productive work. Yay me! Now let’s make this more of a routine. 

Work: Exhausting but fun

I hold a job at the Village Gate Retirement Home on their kitchen staff. It’s not glamorous work, but it is work. I have some real fun doing the work there.

After getting off my shift today, I was absolutely exhausted! It was hard to keep myself awake so I could hold a conversation with my family.

While I’m very tired from the fast-paced work at Village Gate, I take a few good signs from it. First, I must have been productive because I’m so tired! Second, I got to promote the show I’m in to my coworkers and the residents we served. Third, I got to meet some fantastic residents. One who when she saw me immediately asked if I was Irish. I said yes and we got into a discussion on our respective heritages, which is something I enjoy discussions. The other favorite resident was a woman from Massachusetts who went to Boston University, my school! Not only did she go there, her grandfather founded the School of Music at BU! It was so cool getting to hear her story. It made the work a bit more fun knowing who I was serving.

I’ll have fun with this job!